Sunday, November 22, 2015

Fire it up!

The best thing about those moments when you feel stuck betwixt a rock and a pretty solid wall (see my previous post), is that walls tumble down and behind the wall there tends to be a whole new ballpark to frolic in.

Frolicking in new ballparks is awesome!
It brings with it a new sense of freedom, joy and determination.
So, yes: I did grab that bull by the cojones!
From that moment of frustration grew a need to not only make the best out of the situation, but to also further develop myself, my knowledge, my skills...and...ultimately, to refocus my life.

Up until that moment it had been all about me; my transformation, my growth, reconnecting with who I really am and finding my inner strength as well as building some muscles on my physique.
But on that pivotal moment I realized that now that I was this changed person, the situation in itself wasn't what I needed to focus big of a deal as it was in my life (and still is), in the whole shceme of things its not that important. No, the focus lay in that I HAD in fact changed, and that it became clear to me that I really wanted to share that change with other people. Because ultimately, through it, I can possibly make a difference in their lives, and help them figure out THEIR way towards being that person they need to be.
And so, I embarked on a life-changing journey, beyond my personal one, towards what I want to focus my growth on: becoming a life-coach/personal-trainer.

I've experienced first-hand the interconnection between body and mind, and so I can't disconnect the two, when I think of myself as a coach. Mens sana in corpore sano!

And so far it's been fantastic!
The moment I made that decision, and totally without sharing it with anybody (I was still shaping the idea in my mind), people who needed some support started finding me. Some only needed a listening ear and some encouraging words, others wanted help figuring out home-exercises or a push to begin exercising altogether, or inspiration and refocus to start taking steps towards reaching their goals.
It was like I had opened a door, and they had found it.
The fact that they did has brought me far more joy and energy than I could even imagine when I embarked on this new journey.

There is nothing like seeing someone blossom; realizing their potential; getting stronger; seeing the brightness around them and finding new beauty in their lives.
With every step they take, I take one with them, and the world around me fills itself with more and more specs of stardust and happiness.
Happy people are beautiful people.
And I want nothing more than to see all those amazing people be who they truly are, embracing life, and filling it with love and joy.

Meanwhile I'm filling my rucksack of usable knowledge with new items to use, such as a study of the human anatomy, neuro linguistic programming, and more courses and study to follow. Because ultimately I would like to turn this into something I can truly work with. I'm loving every step of the way, and all the insights I'm gaining. My brain overflows with new information, and I feel like a kid in a candystore: more more mooreeee!


Saturday, August 22, 2015


It's been a while since I posted on this platform.
Mainly because...well....where to begin?
But, as with all itches, it's one I had to scratch tonight, so here goes nothing.

In many ways I feel I'm a different person from when I posted here last:
I've since started a new job and most importantly an intense workout regime, that has changed my life. I feel like a different person. Stronger. More confident. More myself, than I have felt for years.
It's been a real eye-opener for me.
Had I known it would make such an impact, I would've done this eons ago.
As it stands, I did it, and it makes me happy!

I invested a lot of time, money and energy into it and it's paying off.
And as I progress, I find myself enjoying it and setting myself new limits, new exercises to conquer, new weights to master and fears to overcome. I enjoy seeing what I can do and surprising myself with my newly found strength and endurance.
It's been helping me through some rough times concerning the terrible sickness of another much beloved family member (for those of you who remember my blogs about my grandfather, you know how this sort of thing affects me) and through it all I feel amazing.
And, so people tell me, rejuvenated.

Luckily I didn't have to figure all of this out by my lonesome.
I've had the most amazing personal coach anybody could wish for. I call him personal coach because he's more than a trainer. He's somebody who made (and still makes) an impact on my life. A personal coach who knows when to push me and when I'm pushing myself too hard in the gym. A mentor. And, dare I say, after 1,5 years of working together, a dear friend, whom I cherish for his wisdom and kindness and his sense of humor.

Which is why it makes it so hard that this week I found out that I can't afford our training sessions anymore...there it was, the moment I had hoped would never come...
It sucks.
It sucks total mega ass.
It sucks so hard get the picture.

But new me isn't going to let it.
No downward shizzle permitted.
I'm going to grab this bull by it's horns and I'm going to give it heck, so hard it wishes it had walked into a different pasture.
Heck, I'M gonna be the bull this time.
If anything, it gave me a kick in the butt to not only continue what I was doing, but to crank things up a few notches!

To infinity and beyond!!